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Weirdo the Abhorrent
26 April 2020 @ 11:57 pm
Oh, and by the way this journal is...

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Internet paranoia finally got to me. But I'm pretty open to new internet people, so just drop me a message here and I'll friend you back :3
 
 
Weirdo the Abhorrent
28 March 2014 @ 09:43 am
Oh man it's been almost two years since I posted anything, and everything from before that is SO PERSONAL (and locked phew). Maybe I need to spawn a new journal for... less personal things? I miss this platform. I never really talk to people on Tumblr. It's like I'm just shouting into an abyss. Which maybe is what I'm doing here because EVERYONE IS GONE. Is anyone out there still reading this? Maybe I'll look for some more active communities or something.
 
 
Weirdo the Abhorrent
19 April 2009 @ 01:05 pm
I need to write this paper but I can't seem to express my flimsy ideas in coherent, academic sounding sentences. Stuff like how Marjane Satrapi's "Embroideries" is basically like a gossip session among women and it's so you know you're getting a subjective interpretation of events and also you're hearing from the women themselves and you don't generally hear much from Iranian women directly so that's good right?

I mean it's there but I can't phrase it an a way that makes it sound like a paper.

I think I'm going to propose that my final paper be about homosexuality in comic books, from being banned in the Comics Code to independent comics later on and mainstream comics finally catching up. It's not super literary but dammit I like it. I guess the worst that can happen is that she's all "NO WAY" on Tuesday. I already found a few sources with just a cursory search on a general sociology database.

So over this classsssssssssssss :(

I wish I could just crank this paper out so I could go back to playing FF8 but it's hell of like wading knee deep in lukewarm queso.
 
 
Weirdo the Abhorrent
18 April 2009 @ 11:32 am
Today I woke up and my hand was so completely numb and asleep that in my bleary not-quite-conscious state I panicked thinking it was going to fall off.

Yeah.
 
 
Weirdo the Abhorrent
16 April 2009 @ 06:29 pm
UPDATE:

fuck it. Went to meet with coworkers, had a bit of trouble finding them, but was otherwise fine. And now I don't feel so bad anymore. Got another call from my Aunt, apparently he already had his court date for his DUI and was supposed to be under house arrest. For some unknown reason, he went out of bounds (I don't know what those bounds were) so the fuzz picked him up and he may or may not be spending the last 5 days of his house arrest in actual jail? We still don't really know much.

If I think about it too much or too hard, I get sad/pissed/scared again, but for now I'm content with "FUCK IT."

There's a stupid little nagging voice in my mind saying "maybe if you called this wouldn't have happened."

FUCK IT.

He's an idiot. That is not my fault. I know this. Shut up, naggy voice, I don't want to hear it from you.

FUCK.
IT.
 
 
 
Weirdo the Abhorrent
16 April 2009 @ 04:34 pm
Got a call from my Aunt Cary with very few details, because she didn't have many. Vague story points so far: Something about Dad trying to walk (presumably to buy alcohol) while drunk, fell down, had to go to the hospital, was only helped by a family who I guess drove by and stopped to help. Ended up arrested, probably for trying to drive drunk because of interlock, going to jail for 5 days.

I'm scared, sad, and pissed, and I'm supposed to be meeting coworkers for drinks/appetizers at 5 (23 minutes from now). Feel like crying. Know if I call to say I can't come I will cry on the phone. Might be able to distract self if I do go, but don't want to break down in tears while there either. Not sure what to do, not enough time to decide (now 19 minutes til 5).

We thought we had seen rock bottom, but now I'm terrified to find out how far down that can go. I don't want my dad to die.
 
 
Weirdo the Abhorrent
14 April 2009 @ 10:40 pm
Added note:

I know I have a ton of school work to do. My regular weekly work for Japanese and graphic narrative (mother fuckin' comics), a short paper for comics, a final research-y paper for comics, my final project for library science (due next Tuesday with extra credit or thursday as the last chance), final paper for astronomy (ugggh). And what do I do with my time? Watch movies and play FF8 (or other games). I just want to be completely mind-numbed it seems. I can't even seem to sneak in an RP tag here and there because it takes too much thinking.

Can't fight the apathy cuz I'm too apathetic.

Also, can't stop thinking about being mad at my dad, which I still am. I haven't talked to him since last sunday, making it over two weeks since we last spoke. And I just... don't want to call. And I hate that. I keep writing speeches in my head or dramatic scenes that'll never actually play out. I know that there is no certain thing I can say (or yell) that'll fix things, but it seems like my brain is trying really hard to write something out, despite logically knowing that it's no use. I hate that things are like this so much, almost as much as I hate the fact that I can't do anything about it, except endlessly forgive my dad's retardation which is really getting old and I'm sick of doing it. I don't know how long it'll take without me calling him for him to finally call me.

a;kwje;fkahwe;oifhaw;ihefj I wish things with my dad were the same as they were when I was in high school. I miss that more than I can articulate. :(

As a result of being incommunicado with my dad, I'm only going to be able to send invites to the most obvious of relatives on that side, unless I suck it up and call and ask, though I cynically doubt how helpful that would even be. Don't want to send invites out without a picture, but I don't have any pictures printed, nor do I even have one taken, but I really need to send them out so I don't know if I should just skip it or what.

Also need to email Professor Crazy of comics class about my research paper but good lord do I not want to communicate with her.

I just can't seem to muster up the motivation to get anything DONE.
 
 
Weirdo the Abhorrent
14 April 2009 @ 08:34 pm
Guys I just watched "The Girl Who Leaped Through Time" and and and

I am a girly sap for the first time in...... a long time.

CHIAKIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

fffffffff :(

It was a pretty good movie though. Maybe not genius, but it was an interesting take on time travel and it was really... quiet and gentle? I dunno. It's a pretty good break from INTENSE MOVIES OF INTENSITY.

...


Somebody hold me :'(
 
 
Weirdo the Abhorrent
11 April 2009 @ 08:12 pm
AM I THE ONLY PERSON ALIVE WHO DOESN'T THINK SETH ROGEN IS FUNNY?
 
 
Weirdo the Abhorrent
08 April 2009 @ 11:10 pm
Watching "The Mind Robber" on Netflix at work.

Patrick Troughton is awesome and so is Jamie's scotch-ness.

I love his >:C face. It's amazing.


...Yes I know I am late to this party.